Wednesday, December 26, 2012

December 21, 2012 (12/21/12 "The end of the world."

Today was supposed to be the end of the world but I am still here so I take it that it was just someone wanting some attention.  I am alive and well!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ruby

December 26, 2012

Today is my first day back from the Christmas holiday.  I didnt want to come back to work today but I did and now I am glad I did.  Not a lot going on so I got a little work done and got to relax and enjoy visiting with the girls.


Today for lunch, I had a blackened chicken salad for lunch instead of what I really wanted.  (Hamburger)  It was so good and I am so glad I choose it instead of junk food.   I need to get back in my jeans because I sure dont have any room in them.  I bet  I have gained 10 or more pounds since September.

Goody's had a great sale on.  I bought two things that I wanted but wouldnt pay that price while they were full price.  I got them 70 % off and then another 20 % with my coupon.  I am glad I waited now.

Ruby


December 25, 2012 (Christmas Day)

Christmas Day was amazing.  I had Christmas morning with my sweet pets.  They all got a lot of nice things and plenty of food. 

I went to my brothers CHristmas Day for lunch.  After we had eaten, we sat down and watched Lonewolf McQuaid.  Old movie but very good and we all enjoyed it.

I then went to visit my Aunt Loreine for a few hours.  We all had a good visit.  So lucky to have her in my life.  She is precious to me.

Merry Christmas!

Ruby

December 24, 2012 (Christmas Eve)

Had a wonderful Christmas eve with my brother, sister in law, nieces, and nephew.  We had our Christmas eve lunch at my house and turned our great.  Lots of good food, fellowship, and love. I got a lot of nice things and very happy.

Looking forward to Christmas tomorow.

Ruby

Thursday, December 13, 2012

12/12/12

Well, it looks like we all survived 12/12/12. I wasnt to scared. ha ha I dont think 12/21/12 is going to be the end of the world but the movies on SyFy sure think so. I am looking forward to my bonus check from Saftcart this week. I hope we get it Thursday instead of Friday. I want to get my layaway out at Wal Mart. Can't wait to start using my 32 inch tv. I am going to put it in my bedroom and wait and get a bigger tv for the living room. Not sure what I will do with my little 22 inch tv. i might put it in the office and use it for a tv and a monitor. Ruby

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

December 5, 2012

I am back sick and it doesnt look like I can keep going without going to the doctor. I am going to go Friday if I can make it that long. Being sick for 6 weeks is to long for anyone and I do need to go on to the doctor. Can't wait till friday!!!!!!!!!! I get my Christmas club plus my match that Saftcart gives me. I need that money so bad to help catch up my rent. I am sending them $450.00 Friday. I wont have any left but I will have peace of mind that my bills are getting paid and I am trying. I decided not to go to Yellville, AR this weekend. Bills come first. I may go the following weekend. It all depends on money. I want to go so bad. If I dont go next weekend; I wont be able to go till February or March. I have most of my Christmas shopping done. The kids want money so thats what they are getting this year. I am going to give it to them the weekend before Christmas so they can go out and enjoy themselves. I am hopefully going to get my 32 inch tv and my other stuff out of layaway this friday. I have paid on it for several weeks now and i want to go on and get it out. I wont be buying anything for a while so I thought i need to go on and get it while I can. Later Ruby

Friday, November 30, 2012

November 30, 2012

Today has been one of those days but it is a productive day. I have to take whatever comes at me and make the best of it. I am looking forward to next weeks paycheck. I have some overtime on it and I get my Christmas club savings and my $175.00 match. I need to pay up my bills that I am so behind on and then I am going to do a little Christmas shopping. Not going to spend a lot this year. The kids are getting money and a small gift. I wanted to go to the Elks Lodge with Debbie and Debra this evening but I really can't afford it. I do need to get out and live a little though. It just wont be this weekend. They say that job related stress is the worse kind of stress. You have to work and taking crap off of mean, nasty people is all part of the vicious cycle. I dont want to be stressed and so I am going to do my job and not so fast where I get frustrated. Ruby

Thursday, November 8, 2012

November 8, 2012

I will soon be in the process of buying a small camper. May have to wait till I get my Christmas bonus and money. I doubt I will get a lot of money back on income tax so I am going to try to pay for it in full next month. I may have to live in it one day. I need to start looking for some good health insurance after the first of the year. I can't afford it but I am going to make myself even if I have to work a second job. I will not be a part of the Obamacare insurance program. Enough of this political mumbo jumbo! I hear enough of it on the news. I am looking forward to my outing tomorrow afternoon with my niece Sarah. we are going to BElla Donna so she can get her nails done for her birthday. we are both looking forward to it. Ruby

November 7, 2012

I am not going to let Obama being reelected as our president dampen my spirits. I am going to continue to live life like I normally do and try to ignore what all he has done to lower the prestige of this country. I am still a Republican and always will be. I haven't been myself lately. I guess I am getting old and tired. I wake up way to early during the week and even earier on the weekeneds. I am so thankful for caffeine. Ruby

Thursday, November 1, 2012

October 31, 2012 (Happy Halloween)

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! I am not one to celebrate Halloween but I do like the cute decorations and the fall colors. Last Saturday, the Harvest Carnival was another great success at Friars Point Methodist Church. We had a total of 28 people and they all had a great time. I am so grateful that the Lord has chosen me to join that church and be a part of the community. God is good. We are having our Thanksgiving meal this coming Sunday. I hope to see a lot of people there. I am going to cook another turkey. They all loved it last year. I am trying to plan a Thanksgiving get together at my house either before Thanksgiving or on Thanksgiving day. I need to get with family and find out how they want to do it this year. I am also going to do a Christmas party at my house this year. I hope my family can all make it. Ruby

Saturday, October 13, 2012

October 13, 2012

I am sitting at the library again thinking about life and what is going on in this country. Cut backs at work are hurting me so bad. I am behind on my rent 2 months and it seems there is no way around it. I get my paycheck and subtract what I make before taxes and from what I receive. I am paying out close to $700.00 a month of money that I will never see again. I am paying for food stamps, welfare, WIC, SNAP, Section 8 housing, etc. I will never benefit from what they are taking out of my paycheck. I am basicially working to live and thats it. I have three days of vacation left that I need to use by the end of this year. I am going to use it too. I am going to take off a week from Monday and go look for a part time job that i can work at nights for a while. Its my only alternative. I am selling my SUV to get some money back in the bank to help me with living. I hope to be moving to Arkansas in the next few years. Heck, it maybe next year. I am just trying to make it right now. Ruby

Friday, October 5, 2012

October 5, 2012

I realized this week that I am just part of the working class poor. I am not a Democrate or Republican. I am just a hard working individual working just to make a living. I dont have any fancy things and my bills are all basic living expenses other than my XM radio for $9.99 and my Dishnetwork for $55.89 s month. I know that in order to start working for my future, I am going to have to leave this area and find a job where I can actually have something instead of a lot of bills. I can go out and purhcase things on credit but paying for them is going to be a lot harder than doing without. I am going to sell my SUV that I love and use that money to get the hell out of the Mississippi Delta. Until then, I will just have to get used to having nothing. Ruby

Monday, October 1, 2012

October 1, 2012

I had to change my cell phone number this morning after 9 years of having the same number all this time. It just came right down to when you are scared to answer the phone or read a text because of someone harassing you all the time. Its best to change your number and move on. Its all the paperwork, emails, faxes, texts, phone calls, etc that you have to change is what messes me up. I may just start changing my number every few months just to clean out the riff raff. Crazy that people make you do things like that just to be able to live free and not be bothered. October 1st did start off well. I woke up this morning to a beautiful fall like morning with a lot of rain. the beautiful fall leaves on Dog Bog road were breath taking. I am going to take pictures later this week if its not raining. ruby

Saturday, September 29, 2012

September 29, 2012

Today is day 6 of my "vegan" healthy diet. It has been hard but I am doing well and I feel good for my decision. I am going to eat meat tomorrow just to let myself know I can still have it and not deprive myself of anything. I may decide I dont want it and want to keep going. I am going to allow myself one day where i can have some meat and make up for it the rest of the week. I am at the library this morning. I love this place. I am so thankful that Coahoma county still has a great library. I am goig to check out some health books and magazines before i go home. I am taking advantage of the little things in life that are free. It makes me appreciate what I really do have. Ruby

Monday, September 10, 2012

September 9, 2012

This weekend has been amazing. Great weather means a lot to me. I can start saving money on my electric bill.

Kincade and I went riding on the levee and I worked on my photo blog. Made a lot of great pictures of the levee, river, and old river. Hope next weekend is even better.

Ruby

Saturday, September 8, 2012

September 8, 2012

Watched MSU beat the pants off of Auburn. I am trying to find a few hobbies to go along with my other hobbies this fall. One of them is MSU football.

I slept so good last night. My air conditioner is working great. I hope this is the end of all the hot nights until the summer of 2013. Ready for fall and winter to get here.

I did well with my money this paycheck. Next weeks check is going to be shorter because of the holiday. I can do it though. I will get to babysit Saturday so that helps a lot.

Ruby

Monday, September 3, 2012

Labor Day

Happy Labor Day! Glad I have a job that has paid holidays off.

Today has been totally boring. If it wasn't so hot it would've been alright. I have two air conditioners blaring and I am sweltering. I am at the gym exercising just to cool off. Hope the lodge is open today.

I did an hour at Snap Fitness today. It felt good too. It's cool in here and I sure don't have anything to do. I am planning on going to the gym the rest of this week. It gives me seething to do and it's good for me.

Ruby

Sunday, September 2, 2012

September 2, 2012

I wish I didn't cancel my vacation plans this weekend. I wanted to go so bad. I spent all my money that I saved so I have to save all over again. I am going to make plans to go the second week in October and camp out.

I really do like this new guy I met but think he is interested in me. I am not giving up but if he is not interested, I will have to.

Runy

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Rest in peace Joey Logan

My heart broke in two when I heard Joey Logan shot himself. I am glad I saw him 4 days before he passed. What a great guy with a beautiful soul. I never would've believed he had problems. He loved Lynn so much. My brother is tore up about it too.

God bless,

Ruby

August 11, 2012

This week has been rough but I made it till the weekend and it's all good now.

This weekend is the blues fest. I didn't go because the streets are to crowded and I don't care for the blues. Hate I am missing Robert Plant but it's not worth dodging bullets uptown.

I did get to babysit this weekend so it's a good thing. I need the money so bad. So many bills to pay and not enough to go around.

Hope to get to go to church in the morning. I will if I get up in time. I love my church so much. I feel convicted when I don't go to church.

Ruby

Thursday, August 2, 2012

August 1, 2012

Shots fired, people getting hurt, houses & cars being set on fire. This is not in some third world country. This is in Clarksdale MS. I know several family's had to flee their homes on West Second Street just to keep their family safe. That used to be where the rich people lived.

Chick-A-Fillet has caused a big mess but I am proud of them. They are standing on the beliefs that God wants us to. I have friends who are mad at them for speaking out against gays. Makes me wonder about them now.

Ruby

Sunday, July 29, 2012

July 29, 2012

This weekend has been really boring. I am having more stomach problems and my period is out of control.

I did walk to the highway and back this afternoon. It was so hot but I did it and I felt good about it. I am going back to the gym tomorrow and try to do it 4 days a week. I have goals to set and my health is at risk.

Ruby

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

July 25, 2012

Work has been busy this week so that is a good thing. I do have a job with plenty of work to do. That is a good thing.

I am having more trouble with my acid reflux and choking. I took my medicine and had some baking soda. Feeling better but still not well.

Not sure what I will be doing this weekend. I do want to go somewhere but don't know where yet. If I had an extra $150.00 I would ride to arkansas and spend the night.

Thinking about selling my IPhone on EBay. I love it but my family could use the money too. I am selling one of my purses now. Don't need a lot of stuff.

I am going to try to tithe every week. It is the right thing to do. I owe a lot of bills but I can hold some out for the Lord. I wouldn't have anything if it wasn't for Him.

God bless!

Ruby

Saturday, July 14, 2012

July 14, 2012

I worked today for a few hours trying to catch up from being off Tuesday and going to the doctor yesterday. Got a lot done but my office still needs some cleaning. The floors are awful.

I went by to see the kids today. They are all doing well. Always good to hear that. Leo got my new oil dip stick to fit in the engine of the Volvo.

I actually bought groceries today. That's something I hardly ever do. I got a good bit got what I spent so it was with it.

Kincade and I rode the lever today. We went to the Mississippi river and to Old River. I took a few pictures to add to my Facebook albums. I really enjoy doing that. I should be ready for another photo shoot sometime in August.

Ruby

July 13, 2012

I had a doctors appointment today. I have to go back in a few weeks for a check up and to see if I am going through premenopausal.

I started taking a total body cleanse today. GNC makes it. Lesa Parks ga r it to me. I am trying to get my body cleansed as a starting point to get healthy.

Ruby

Saturday, July 7, 2012

June 6, 2012

I work so hard every day at work. I have so many responsibilities and very little recognition. I need a raise so bad since overtime has been cut out. I found out I am the lowest paid girl at Saf T Cart and I have been there the longest. I need to either get a raise or get another job. I was so hurt and humiliated when I found out. They talking I am the highest paid one there and you job is meaningless. I am going to end up getting a part time job this fall in a gin or grocery store.

I want to go to Arkansas so bad but I can't afford to make the trip even for just a day or two. I need to get away and just relax. I decided I need to take my vacation days instead of hold them for the money. I will have to play catch up when I get back because it nothing will be done.

Had a great time with family at The Ranchero last night. We all had a great time. Wish Leo could've made it but he was still working. I want to do that more often.

Ruby

Thursday, July 5, 2012

July 4, 2012

Wonderful time @ the Elks Lodge for the 4th of July. Great food, atmosphere, and music. Really had a good time there. Looking forward to many more outs at the Lodge. Great place to hang out.

The temps have been 100 plus for the past two weeks. I am endure g it the best way I can. My bedroom is hot tonight and it was almost unbearable sat night. Hope the a c kicks in soon. Hot in here.

Not sure what I am doing this weekend. I want to go somewhere but not sure what I am going to do. I have to see what I can afford first. Have to pay rent tomorrow.

Ruby

Saturday, June 30, 2012

June 30, 2012

I am so happy I got to babysit today. I have 3 kids today and they are great. I need the money so bad to get a few bills paid. I doubt I will go to church tomorrow. It's going to be late when I get off work.

I should be up to date on all my bills by the end of July. I hope to get to babysit and get in a little overtime in so things should be good. I don't want to turn my Directv back on any time soon. I enjoy what I have now.

I didn't make my gym commitment in June. I won't be able to get my shoes until later. I almost had it but messed up last week. I will try another contest with myself for July or August a d see where it takes me.

Ruby

June 29, 2012

This week has been awful. Every thing that could go wrong did go wrong. Orders put in wrong, lazy democrats, trucking companies getting here late, etc. Not to mention 100 degree weather!!!!!

Had a great time at the auction last night. Bought a few things for my stock pile. I now have enough tooth paste, lotion, and suntan oil to last me for a year or so.

I get to babysit the Young children today. Excited about that. I need the money to pay my rent. I have paid most of my bills that needed taking care of. Not much left but I can make it.

Ruby

Sunday, June 24, 2012

June 24, 2012

Great sermon @ church this morning. The Lord blessed me and led me where He wants me to be @ that's at Friars Point Methodist Church!

I carried Mason& Jordan swimming this afternoon. I think I will bring a bathing suit next time. It was 104 this afternoon. Hot!!!!

I did make it to the gym this afternoon. I love going to the gym. Wish there was more people interested in going. It's a lot of fun when there's someone to talk too.

Ruby

June 23, 2012

Had a good day today. Kincade and I went riding the back roads and to the Mississippi River. Beautiful day. Took pictures of sunflowers.

Bruce came over. We watched the new version of Footloose and rode the back roads in his new truck. Stopped by Johns office and talked to him a few minutes.

Ruby

Monday, June 11, 2012

Vacation Day 3. June 11, 2012

I made up a bug out bag to keep in the trunk of my car. I have everything I need if I break down or have to spend a night somewhere unexpected.

The kids didn't want to go to the pool this afternoon. I wanted to go spend the day with them but they were tired. Maybe tomorrow.

I think I am going to go back to work tomorrow. This has been a productive vacation but ready to go back to work. I needed this long weekend to get things done. I have July 4th off so I can use that day to get the rest done. I want to do some canning this summer. I also want to put stuff in the freezer for the winter. My freezer is almost bare.

I went to the Elks Lodge tonight for the meeting. Had a great time. I am going out there tomorrow night too. Love that place. So glad I joined.

I am going back to work tomorrow. I don't need to stay home any longer. I will draw my money down in July. I need to be back at work where I am appreciated and loved.

Ruby

Sunday, June 10, 2012

June 10, 2012 Vacation Day 2

Went to church and Sunday school this morning. Beautiful, sunny morning.

I made some vacation pancakes this morning for me and Kincade. Put some left overs in the freezer and some for in the morning.

Rode to Clarksdale this afternoon & picked pears and plums. Cant wait yo put them up in the freezer. Returned my movie and rent two more. Bought groceries and headed home.

Watching a good horror movie and sipping on a drink now. Enjoying this beautiful evening since I don't have to work tomorrow.

I am hoping to save $200.00 between now and the end of the month so I can go to Yelleville arkansas. That's all I would need to go for one or two days. Need to get away from here and see what all there is to do say from here. I hope to move to Arkansas in the next few years.

Ruby

Saturday, June 9, 2012

June 9,2012 Vacation Day 1

Today is the first day of my vacation. Time to recharge my batteries and enjoy a little rest and relaxation. Not for sure what I will be doing today but it will be what I want to do.

I bought a Sony Smart Tv box on eBay this morning. It was a great deal and I have been wanting one for a while. I couldn't afford a vacation away from home so I decided I wanted to buy another electronic device.

Sadie Belle had her puppies Wednesday night. She had them under the porch and won't come out even for food and water. I have been putting food under there for her. She is such a good momma. She is protecting her babies from the other dogs.

I was so overwhelmed with my vacation that I fell asleep watching a movie on Netflix. I got up and rode with Kincade to the levee and stopped by to see John. We had a good visit .

Back at home drinking Starbucks instant java mocha coffee. Think I will go back to my office and watch a little tv on my laptop and go to bed very early. Going to church in the morning and teaching Sunday School.

Ruby

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Delta Jubilee 5/31/2012

Great time with family at the Delta Jubilee. The kids had a wonderful time at the carnival. I have to say that the people all had a good time. The catfish supper for all the volunteers were wonderful. We all enjoyed it. Its times like these that make memories.

Ruby

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

May 31, 2012

I am getting tired of paying "stupid tax" all the time. I paid close to $300.00 in overdraft charges just this month. I already have a hard time making a living at times. I want to get out of debt but I can't make it work. I have canceled plans of going anywhere this year and hope that if will help. May not be able to go anywhere this year.

I need to talk to someone that can help me get back on track. I may have to sell my SUV and pay off some bills with the money. I am not trying to live some extravagant life. I just want to live a regular life.

I can do this if I just take control and do it. I may have to get a part time job for a few months to get back on my feet. Bad choices made me do this and I am reaping the end.

Ruby

Sunday, May 27, 2012

May 26. 2012

Had a great time at the Memphis Zoo yesterday with family. We have a 1 year pass do that will help. Looking forward to many more trips this summer.

Ruby

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

May 23, 2012

Rest in peace Mrs Wanda Blackwell. you were the best. Going to miss you dearly.

Ruby

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Norman & Lisa's wedding

Had a great time at Norman and Lisa's wedding. Happy to see two people in love and want to spend their lives together. Beautiful wedding and reception. The love of Jesus was in that church this afternoon.

Ruby

May 19, 2012

Had a great time at Jordan's ball game and then supper at The Elks Lodge with Becky. Great food, fun, and conversation. I think we need to do that again.

I am trying to plan a short but fun filled vacation this summer. I am going to try to take a few days off in June if I can get away. I put on the board that I wanted June 11th and 12th off. I am
for sure going to be off June 11th. I am trying to see how Shan is doing before I make any plans. I want to take my first week of vacation off before July 1st. The big vacation I want to plan is going to start on my birthday and go through Monday or Tuesday. I have two weeks this year but don't know how exactly to use them but I will use them.

I love my job but I do need a well deserved break. I need the money too but this year I am going to do something. I haven't been on vacation is 9 years. It's time to get out and enjoy myself. I have a lot of pressure on me but I can handle it. People just need to pull their own weight to make every one else's go smoothly.

Looking forward to next Monday off. It's a long Memorial Day for me. Not going to do much. Just enjoy the weekend and hope that we have nice weather.

Until then,

Ruby

Friday, May 11, 2012

May 11, 2011

This week wasn't as bad as some of the others. I had a day or two this week where everything went wrong. I have to stop a d correct other peoples mistakes do I can move on. Crazy week.

Praying for Shan Parks. He is not doing well but he is making it. He and Lesa are leaving for Dallas Saturday morning and will be gone for a week.

Ruby

Saturday, April 28, 2012

April 28, 2012

Becky and I had a great time at the Hank Williams Jr concert last night. I haven't been anywhere in a long time. It did me good to get out and enjoy myself.

I am working on vacation plans. I plan on doing something soon. I am going to carry my family with me wherever we decide to go. Don't know if it's going to be a weekend somewhere of just go to the zoo and Southaven. Will talk to Leo and Christie tomorrow.

Ruby

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Earth Day 4/22/12

Happy earth day! I am going to make a vow to be kind to our planet and do my part for the next week. I hope to learn more and make this a part of my life. God gave us this life and forever we are grateful .

Kincade and I are going to ride to The river today and look at all the beautiful trees. Beautiful day for it too.

Ruby

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

April 18, 2012

I have an eye infection and it's really bad. I had to leave work at 10:00 am today. I have time up but hate missing work. I am going to make myself go to work tomorrow. I might take off work Friday. Not sure yet.

Today was a nice day. Cool and comfortable. Wish it would stay like that. I don't like using the air conditioner to much.

Gotta go.

Ruby

Sunday, April 15, 2012

April 14, 2012

Had a great time at the juke joint festival. Didnt stay long but I did get out and did something.

We had a great turn out at the pancake breakfast. Lots of people our this weekend for our fundraiser. God is so good.

Ruby

Sunday, March 25, 2012

March 24, 2012

Had a great time with family at the Barnum & bailey circus yesterday. Beautiful day for families to get together. The kids had a ball.

We went to Sams for lunch and did a little shopping. Good pizza ! There was a lot of people out yesterday. Our country can't be in to much trouble because people were shopping and buying.

Looking forward to the zoo in a few weekends. I am going to buy a season pass to the zoo so all the kids will get to go several times this summer.

Had a great supper with Paul and his beautiful girlfriend. Wonderful visit. Looking forward to doing it again soon.

Ruby

Sunday, March 18, 2012

March 18, 2012

Shan Parks is not doing well at all. He is in the hospital in Southaven, MS. He has been taken off the chemo because it was shutting down his kidneys. He is now on a liver transplant list. I pray to God that he will pull through this and live many more years.

Ruby

Saturday, March 17, 2012

St Patricks Day

Happy St Patricks Day! I listened to some good Irish music and watched Leprechaun all day of SyFy.

My car is still in the shop. I got new tires but now it's the break line. $$$. I am grateful I have a job that can help me with it but it's still very pricy .

I am going to start planning a short vacation this summer. Don't know where I will go but I am going somewhere. I may stay around here and just go to Memphis . I am going to take 2 days off and save the other days for whenever I need them.

Ruby

Saturday, March 10, 2012

March 10, 2012

It's been a while since I've updated my blog. Been busy with work and home.

I've been trying to pick up the tree limbs up and put them on the side of the road. I have more to do tomorrow. I am trying to get motivated to do more. I am going to finish the rest tomorrow and clean up my flowers and plants under the trees.

I am going to plant a small garden this summer. So excited! I want a big garden but i am going to start out small. May just put some in pots and grow some off my porch. I'll have my freezers full.

Ruby

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

January 9, 2012

Lots of things ended today. One being that Bruce and I are officially not seeing each other and not going to rekindle things again. Sorry to see him leave but I can't change his mind.

The next loss was Alabama beating LSU. I haven't been a football fan in over 20 years but glad they won.

I think I will go to Oxford this weekend and watch a movie and go eat somewhere. The auction is fun on Friday nights but it's just to close to Crowder, MS.

Ruby

Sunday, January 1, 2012

January 1, 2012

Happy New Year!!!!! I am ready to get this year started. Last year wasn't good for me. I pray this year will be better than ever.

There are so many things I can say that I am going to do but may not be able to. I am not going to promise anything to myself that I cannot do. I just need to make the most of my life and put Jesus first.

Ruby